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Niall (Age 15): You’ve always been a little bit more rebellious than the rest of your family members. You liked to be unique which wasn’t wrong but ever so often you would come home late and past your curfew or you wouldn’t do your homework. Your teacher called your parents a few times and of course they were mad but they gave you always the feeling they loved you. You thought that would never change but after the talk with one of your teachers today you weren’t so sure anymore. He told you that you probably fail his class this year. You knew you weren’t the best student but you thought you would always pass. Even worse was the fact that he said he called your parents and told them about the situation. You knew they would be mad and slowly you got the feeling that they would never forgive you this. You already started your walk home but decided to go to the nearest park since you didn’t want to face your parents. As you sit down under a tree you feel how the tears start to roll down your cheeks. Frustrated you start to whip them away but it was no help. The tears rushed down your cheeks like there’s no tomorrow. You sat there probably for hours but then you hear a familiar voice. “(Y/N)? Oh thank god.” Niall yells as he runs to you. He kneels down so he is eye level with you. He pulls out his phone and calls someone. “Mum? I’ve found her. Don’t worry. She’s fine. I bring her home.” he explains to your mum and ends the call quickly. “We were so worried. Why are you here alone?” your brother asks you after he sits down next to you. “I-I fail.” you whisper quietly. “I’ve heard about this.” he sighs and wraps an arm around your shoulders to pull you close. “They hate me.” you whimper. “Who?” Niall wants to know. “Mum and dad of course.” you say looking into his eyes. “What? They don’t. Sure they’re not happy but they could never hate you. You’re their daughter. We all love you.” Niall explains and hugs you closer. “Come on. We go home. And then we talk and find a solution together.” You nod your head in agreement and stand up. “And (Y/N). Don’t ever think that we don’t love you. You’re so important to everyone of us.” he smiles and you two start to walk home.
Liam: You never knew why but you always had the feeling that your parents and the rest of your family didn’t like you as much as your sisters or your brother. It’s not like they ignored you but as you’re the youngest in the family you felt like you never achieved something like your brother or your sisters. Of course your parents thought you’re as important as your siblings but you never believed this. Eventually you wanted to be as good as your siblings and so you started to do more activities in school. You joined the school choir even if you never liked your singing voice and you joined the theatre group. Surprisingly you loved the theatre group but as you also decided to help younger students with their school works you didn’t have any time left. You wanted that your family starts to love you and you thought that with all of the activities they see that you’re not a waste of space as you called yourself. The only problem was that you never had time for yourself. You needed to learn the script, the lyrics but also needed time for the younger students. Of course your parents noticed that you weren’t home as much as you used to or that you always looked tired. As Liam came back from tour he even told you you look extremely tired but you just shrugged it off. As you prepare the lines for your next meeting with your theatre group Liam comes into your room. “Hi. Do you want to go to the movies or something like that. We haven’t done anything for ages.” he suggest as he sits down on your bed. “I’d love to but I have to learn this.” you say and hold the script up. “Don’t you have a few hours? You could learn it tomorrow.” Liam says. “I can’t. I have choir tomorrow and I have to help someone with their homework. I give private lessons you know.” you explain while studying your text. “I always thought you don’t like to sing? You always hated your voice.” he asks suspiciously. “Well that changed.” you state sternly not looking at Liam. “(Y/N)? Look at me.” he demands as he noticed you start to get uncomfortable. “Liam I have to learn this now so can you please leav-” you try to talk your way out of the conversation but your brother cuts you off. “No. I won’t leave. I want to know what’s wrong. Mum and dad told me you’re never home and always busy. That’s not good for you. Tell me why are you doing so much?” he asks carefully. “I want to be as good as you all. You all do so much and mum and dad love you more because of that. I want this too. I’m useless and no ones likes me. I’m just sitting around.” you explain with tears in your eyes. At the end of your speech you look up to see Liam’s shocked face. “(Y/N).” he sighs and walks over to you so he can hug you. “You don’t need to do this. We love you. You’re young. Of course you sit around. I did the same but now I have a job. That’s a huge difference. I’m earning money and you shouldn’t feel the need to be as good as me or your sisters because you are as good as we are.” he explains while rocking you from side to side. “ We love you so much.” he whispers and kisses you head. “Bu-but you all have so-something you’re go-good at and then there’s-there’s me.” you hiccup against his chest. He pulls away and looks at you. “And you have time to find out what you like. If you found it we’ll support you. Now the first what we’ll do is to get you out of those clubs.” he says and as he’s about to throw the script into the bin you stop him. “I kinda like the theatre group.” you admit quietly. “Oh. Alright. Well I think you found the first thing you like doing.” he smiles as he hugs you again. “But no more choir.” you whisper by what he chuckles.
Louis: You remembered the day your mum told everyone she’s pregnant again: Of course everyone was excited and happy for your mum even you but after a little while you started to realize what this means. As you were a big family it was difficult to pay attention to everyone. You weren’t the oldest kid but not the youngest either. Often they ‘forgot’ you. Of course not really but you wished they’d paid a bit more attention towards you. It was a very stressful day at school so you were more than happy to be home. The best was that Louis came home a few days ago as you missed him like crazy. Walking inside the house you are greeted with silence. You start to look in the kitchen but no one is there so you continue your search through the house but you couldn’t find anyone. You knew that one of your sisters is on a school trip and another had a sleep over with one of her friends but the question was where is the rest? You decided to call your mother. She answers the call after a few rings and you ask her were they are. “Oh we went out to get something to eat. I didn’t want to cook today.” she says happily. “Why did you ask?” she wants to know as you swallow hard. “Well it’s just that I’m all alone and I didn’t know you went out.” you explain a bit annoyed. “Oh god. I’m sorry. I though you’re not home this night. I think I switched it up. Don’t worry we’ll bring some food with us.” You nod your head even if she can’t see you. “It’s ok. You don’t need to. I’ll find something here.” you say sadly and end the call. Now you weren’t someone to freak out about small things but this wasn’t the first time this happened. It were situation where they almost forgot you at the mall or bought your ‘favourite food’ which was someone else favourite in the end. All these things came together and suddenly a few tears started to roll down your cheeks. Frustrated you walked into the backyard and stare into the air. Deep inside you know your parents love you but right now it feels like no one is there for you. You cry for what felt like hours. At one point you heard voices inside the house but you ignored them. Just as someone walks outside towards you you look up and see Louis walking over to you. “(Y/N)?” he asks as he sits next to you. “How are you.” You sigh and shrug your arm. He wraps his arm around your shoulders and pulls you to his body. “We’re sorry. Mum thought your out and so we didn’t asked if you want to come with us.” he explains. You nods your head not looking at him. “I’m used to it.” you whisper. “What are you talking about.” he asks and pulls away. “That I’m forgotten. That nobody loves me. That I’m alone.” you state looking straight ahead. “(Y/N). You know that’s not true. We all love you.” he sighs and pulls you into a big hug. “But-but” you start to sob but he hushes you. “No buts. I know it can be hard with such a big family but I promise you we care about each other.” You nod your head. “I know it was just too much today. My day was horrible and this topped everything.” you hiccup lightly. “You know what’s great about such a big family. You get hugs and cuddly from everywhere. Now come on we want to watch a movie.” he says and pulls you up and a smile starts to form on your face again.
Zayn: It was very hard for you as Zayn left for tour because you were always very close to your brother. Of course you loved the rest of your family too but you had a very special bound with him. Zayn was the one your trusted the most and whenever you had problems you went to him. You still talk with him over the phone but it was difficult to speak about your problems when you know that he isn’t there to hug you and kiss your head like he always did. The only thing he could do was to tell you it’ll be alright but it wasn’t the same. Zayn knows that this is hard for you and tries to call and talk with you as often as possible but often you wouldn’t talk about your difficulties as you’re to happy to hear his voice. You’ve never been someone who’s very open towards new people and so it was hard to find new friends in school. You know that a lot of people think you’re extremely shy which wasn’t the case when you were with your friends or family you just liked to be careful and liked to wait until you trusted someone. Of course not everyone understood this and so some people started to bully you. At first it was harmless. They laughed here and there about you and you didn’t really cared about this but since a few weeks they also call you names. It was hard to be called a slut or loser every time you walked into school and at this point you didn’t need to be remembered that you’re worthless because now you thought it yourself. Another bad day ended for you and you felt really down. It was worse then ever before because you doubted if your family even loved you. Why should they? You’re nothing special you told yourself over and over again and decided to leave so that they’d have one less problem. As you walked along the street you realized you didn’t know where you should go and it didn’t help the situation that it started to get dark. You cried quietly as you sat down on a bench to calm down. Suddenly you felt your phone vibrating. You looked down and saw Zayn’s name. You never denied a call from him so you picked up. “Hello?” you answer quietly. “(Y/N)? Where are you. Mum called me and said she can’t find you anywhere.” your brothers frantic voice explains. “I don’t know.” You hear him sigh probably to calm himself down. “What do you mean you don’t know. Are you lost?” he asks but this makes you cry harder. “No. I run away.” you state sobbing. “But why? What happened?” You shake your head even if he can’t see you. “I can’t explain it over the phone.” It was silent for a few seconds until he speaks again. “Look. I wanted it to be a surprise but I’m coming home in three days. Not for a long time but I thought you could come on tour with me.” “Really?” you ask him. “I wouldn’t lie about those things.” he promises you. A smile appears on your face as you look down on your shoes. “I know.” you whisper. “Now. Please go home. I don’t know what’s wrong but we talk when I’m back. I hope you can wait until then.” Zayn tells you. “Sounds good. I think I’ll walk home now?” you say more like a question. “Yes you should. But stay on the phone. It’s late and I’d want to make sure you get home safe.” So you started to walk home with him on the phone the whole time and by the time you got home your mum engulfed you into a big hug and maybe your thoughts were wrong.
Harry: You didn’t know why but at one point you felt like no one’s there for you. It’s never a certain situation where you think others ignore or don’t like you. The feeling was there almost every hour, minute or second of the day and you had no idea why. Your parents are very supportive and show you often that they love you but you often think they do this because you’re their daughter and they have to do this. You had the same problem towards your siblings: They only care about you because you’re their sister. You didn’t wanted to cause troubles and so you kept all of these thoughts inside of your head. You never talked with anyone how you actually felt and it started to bother you more and more. The nights were you fall asleep with tears in your eyes become more often and the fake smile starts to form on your face more easily when someone asks you how you are. Today was another hard day for you since the negative thoughts won the battle inside your head. You started to make a plan: You want to run away. As you sit all by yourself inside your room you start to take a bag out of your closet to put in some clothes and the chocolate you found in your room. Before you leave you still need to take a bottle of water with you but they are in the kitchen right now. Not knowing where you could go to you print out a small map of your city so you aren’t completely lost. As the evening comes and the rest of your family went to bed you walk into the kitchen to grab a water bottle and to lay down the letter you wrote for your family to let them know why you run away. Quickly you walk out of the house and start to walk. After hours of walking around you become tired and of course you look for a place to stay the night. The problem was you didn’t really know where so you keep walking looking out for a good opportunity. What you never expected was that a car would follow you. As you notice that the car comes to a stop you start to run until you hear a all to familiar voice. “(Y/N). Please. Stop.” your brother yells. Knowing you’re to tired to keep running you stop and turn around to see a racing Harry. As he reaches you he involves you into a big hug and mumbles hectic words into your hair. “Why do you think we don’t care.” he says with a pained expression on his face. Ashamed you look down. “I don’t know. I just feel like I’m all alone and then I become sad and-and” you start to sob but he quickly stops you. “Shh. It’s ok. We don’t have to talk today. Tomorrow is another day. Right now we drive back and just sleep. I was shocked as I read your letter.” he explains as he leads you to his car. “Really.” you whisper. “Of course. You’re my everything.” he smiles and pulls you once again into a side hug.
AN: Only a few people answered my question if you’d be interested in an instagram account about one direction bsm’s. I’d post stuff about new BSM and picutres and you’d know when I update. So maybe I get a few more answers today :)